It only makes me think and re-think whenever I’m asked to do a review of my performance at work.
Worked in many organisations and had numerous supervisors/ managers/ team heads and projects heads etc….but it’s definitely worth noting how they all say the same thing in different ways and tones…..
Anyway back to my 1st line- had a few minutes of a Q & A session with my conscience ( the result was painful)
C: So how were the last few months at the workplace?
M: Err. Nice, I mean good good, very challenging, a wonderful learning experience, understood some of those difficult principles and blah blah blah
C: Really?
M: Uh hmm
C: Ok, in that case, rate your performance from 1-10 where 10 is Best
M: Oh! ?#~/;?
C: [frown]
M: I mean it’s difficult to rate one self, I have come a long way but still a way to go, so maybe 5.
C: Ah! The safe bet always…..midway. Is that really the case??
M: Well, I don’t know what else to say, it’s always best to say half n half. (smiling)
C: Oh yes, but still you should be able to rate yourself better than ‘safe’, and this is only to give you a clearer picture of where you are.
M: Oh! But won’t the manager tell me that? I mean they should ideally, they are the ones who are tracking my progress…blah blah blah
C: Why so much unnecessary arguments? Is it that difficult to rate yourself?
M: ( looking a tad upset n thinking hard) Ok! To be honest, I don’t know, I’ve never given that a thought, and didn’t think that was necessary…..
C: Well, if you cannot rate yourself, then it isn’t commendable at all is it?
M: I suppose so, but does it mean that I don’t care about how I do at work, just as long as the bank gets credited
C: [Shrugs]
M: (Pursed lips) or it could be a reflection that maybe I haven’t achieved much at all….which is horrible, OMG, now you making me depressed, I’m not that bad, it’s just a new experience and maybe I haven’t given it much thought. I’m sure if I try to concentrate and think ……
C: [evil grin] That’s my job! ThInK!
END of terrible Q & A
4 comments:
finally i'm happy to find someone who feels as lost as me while doing my own performance review - it's like solving the murdoch mystery for me i guess!!!!
wow..i loved this blog. exactly what i would have thought..why me? I guess most people fumble when they need to fill their own performance evaluation. I wonder is it really difficult to judge oneself? hmm....I don't get any answer from within..:)
I connect with you.. I could never rate myself.. Its the most difficult thing to do for me...The impossible...Gyan gurus say you should spend some time on reflection .. but that tough for me... Reading your blog, I am sre my C is fed up with me...
hey guys, thanks for that. Makes me feel better now, thought I was so b@;*# useless.
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